I miss her

20 October 2016
Its already 5 months you leave us

          When you decided to get further treatment at Hospital Sultanah Aminah, Johor Bahru and stop being treated at University Malaya Medical Centre (UMMC), I miss a chance to meet you due to end of semester examination. The last time I see your face and hold your hand, when you were admitted in emergency room. I gave you a bottle of water and a bread also your phone to ease you to contact us.

4th May 2016

          You were too weak, Nadiah and Izyani tried very hard to help you to go to the class for exam, three of you late 15 minutes while me, late for 10 minutes. After exam, we decided to go to IIUM Clinic to get a permission letter for you to sit for exam only in the clinic. Dr. Hamid noticed that you look more thinner than the passport picture that you stamped on your medical record and your face looked very pale. Then, Dr. Hamid decided to send you to UMMC to get better and accurate treatment there. Four of us went to UMMC by ambulance. I pushed your wheelchair and safely entered emergency room.

          The day of tomorrow we have two papers to go yet, we did not bring any books to hospital. We take turns wait in emergency waiting room. After wait for so long, we went to food court searching for food, went to musolla to pray and get some rest while waiting for you. Dalili and Afi kept contact us and asked either you were okay or not. Even, they lost appetite to eat also lost focus to study because they were too worried about you and us. After 3 hours of waiting, the doctor called for Zafirah Haziqah's guardian and I entered the emergency room. I saw you. Both of your hand has a tool that hospital used to enter water or blood or medicine into blood vessels. I also saw your blood flow. It make me sad, but, I have to be strong in order to make you strong.

          12 a.m., our fellow took us from hospital. As we reached at our room, Dalili and Afi waited for us loyally and I saw food that we ordered that evening were untouched. Thanks to Auni, she sent a lot drinks and foods to us, she really understands us. We ate together and then study for next paper. We slept at 4 a.m. and woke at 6 a.m.. Can you imagine how sleepy I have to go through that day. Back from exam, Auni told us that you had going back to Johor.

20th May 2016
        
           " Anis, get ready, we will visit Zaf and her family after Ayah back from mosque " mama said

While I'm getting ready, I got a call from Zaf. Exciting.

          " Salam, kak, this is Piqa " Zaf lil sister calling me
          " Oh Piqa, why you call me suddenly? "
          " When you want to come here? " she asked me
          " I'm getting ready to go to your house "
          " Kak, pray to Allah that Angah will be okay, hmm? " she cried
         
         After Dad back from mosque, we went to Kulai first to fetch Nadiah and take her with me visit Zaf. On my way to her house, I got another called from Piqa, she told us that Zaf had passed away just now. My heart beats very fast. Tears flow from my eyes. I feel very cold. I late for an hour. As me and Nadiah reached at your house, I heard voices of people recite yassin. I walked slowly, I saw many people cry, as I entered living room, I saw a body covered by kain batik. I still can't believe this. I sat beside you and open the kain batik and cried. I kiss your cheek. I still can't believe. Praise to Allah, I got to pray for you and I got to see you were buried from far.

May you belong to the Mu'minin, Solihin, Muslimin
Al-Fatihah to Zafirah Haziqah Mohamad

Us without you