Frienship Never Stop

FRIEND IN NEED IS FRIEND IN DEED...

          I'm quite a gangster person. Everything I'm done sometimes make other people feel uneasy towards me. I'm also quite talkative so every tiny thing in my heart I will tell my friend so that, my words sometimes little harsh to them but for me it just 'words'. What I need in this friendship is just IKHLAS friend. Sincere to hear all my sadness and happiness , sincere to friend with me, and sincere to bring me to the right path. Strangers that still not really know me well, they will say that I'm a fierce person. From my outer side of myself, I'm look fierce but I'm really nice and talkative... Trust me. I'm also a spoil girl towards my parents and family members, but I'll try to hide this kind of sifat from other people and also my friends.

         This semester is a challenging sem for me because I took three core subject and all about calculation whereas I'm very weak in calculation. My roommates also known as my best friends, all of them is a brilliant and clever student, in this room, I have the lowest level of intelligence. It had been proved as I obtained the lowest mark of quizes. Whether it physic or chemistry or mathematics. Sometimes, I feel very down but I feel glad that I have my parents to support me. I never call my parents in front of my friend because I don't want to burden them with my simple problem that I can solve. I realized that I'm not clever as my friend and my sister but I try to dig knowledge as many as I can. My parents always said

 " if you think that you're not a clever student, its okay, as you want to study and become good child,student and friend , it enough for us "

Pray for me. I ask for your dua, to pray for me. Pray to Allah that I will become good 'abd , good child , good person for ummah and beneficial to other people.

          Thanks a lot to Nadiah Kamal because you always make my day. You always try to fight with me and I feel fun with that. You always heard all my stories. You also make me want to laugh whenever I see you. You just like me ,  a lazy person but the different between you and me is you are smarter than me. Thanks to you because you let me lend your shoulder to cry. You also teach me in physics and mathematics. Even you is a quite lazy person but you are really brilliant. Its a gift from Allah to you. 

          Lastly, I feel very glad to have many friends and parents to support me. I appreciate that a lot. Thanks guys.

My Sistorr

Dear My Beautiful Big Sister, Akillah Sam,

Life with luxury scholarship is fun right? Absolutely its fun. I heard you will have a fun trip to UK with ur friends. I hope u enjoy it.

Appa had though about my degree. He keep mentioned about loan ( PTPTN ), he also keep mentioned about Ayyub and Amirul's school fee. Money is not everything but everything need money. From now on, I have to save my money, limited my money for future.

My wish since childhood until I'm grown up to be like you never gone. I hope one day I will make our parents smile like you did. I'll try to study hard like u my sister.

I hope you read my heart as well and make dua for me to become a successful child to our parents like you.

                       Your lil beautiful sister,
                                     Nabila Sam

Je t'aime

Dear My Beloved Handsome Lil Bro, Adam Sam,

I know how hard you're trying to become like us. When appa said to you
 ' you must go to DQ like ur sister '- sometimes,
 ' you also can become like Kak Kila, she went to Egypt so, maybe one day, you can go other places like Medina or Mecca'- other than that appa always said this
 ' you must get at least  8A's for your SPM, or just become like Kak Kila- straight A's '

How much you must bear all of this? How long you must hear this kind of sentences? How hard for you to let it go..

I think I know how you feel, but I think you must feel the burden more than me. When teachers always compared between you and us. When teachers told me about you at school. When you must hold a big liability at school. When appa asked you to become olahragawan like Kak Kila.

Its hard for you to fulfill those kind of 'request'. You have been burdened with someone 'request'.
When appa and omma went to work, you study at your room alone. Sometimes you asked me some questions but I couldn't answer it. I'm sorry Bro. When I saw u slept on the books, i feel like you re not study for yourself to become successful person  but you study because others 'request'.
Bro, just be yourself, never push yourself on a thing that you actually can't do. 

Last but not least,who you re, how you end your schooling, how many A's you will get, I'll support you till the end, I will love who you are and I will give my best.

               

                                                                                     Your beloved cute sister,

                                       Nabila Sam

Grateful is Beautiful

      I’m very grateful to live in this happy family, although in nature there would be a significant problem. I remained grateful. Today’s writes do not means that I want to boast up myself but I just wanted to share a sense of gratitude to others, that I’m very glad to live with my beloved family . 

     From both sides of my parents big family, my sister is the first person who studies abroad, before this none of my relatives study abroad. However, in the next year, I have an older cousin studying at Ireland in accounting field .  My sister is a second person in  family who take medicine field. My thanks grown up when I remembered that my sister is the second generation who attend SMAKJ ( best religious school in Johor ), even though before that I have an older cousin  went to the school , however, she is not well known like my sister’s. My famous and brilliant sister  made  every cousin that goes to the school,the teachers would say that they are my sister's cousin, teachers did not say they were my cousins, even I have long  period with my cousin compared to my sister. And, my name is rarely mentioned by teachers because they would mention my name as a younger sister to my older sister. The fact is, my sister is not a clever girl since her childhood, she can only read at the age of 8 years old, but she can perform brilliantly when she grew up.

     Not sometimes but often, teachers always make comparison between me my sister because she has high level of ingenuity and hardworking  compared to me. But I'm proud to having a sister like my sister. My thanks getting bigger when I passed the Darul Quran interview. Darul Quran ( International Maahad Tahfiz ) is one of the place that my sister really wanted to go, when she knew she failed the interview, she’s like having a nightmare. While me? I did not have a piece of a dream to get into DQ, but I managed to pass the interview phase. My parents forced me to go to DQ because among 1000 students that went the early interview only 100 student has been chosen, . Here, I started smiling because for the first time I've heard people say that  I'm better than my sister because my sister does not pass the DQ interview but I passed. And I was the first person from both  parents big family who memorise the Quran. I became the trigger to my family members to memorise the Quran, I became a pillar of confidence to my uncle to send their children to Maahad Tahfiz ( school to memorise Quran ). Till this day, I have 4 younger cousins who memorise Quran. Again, I’m very grateful to live in this great education of my parents.

     I don’t  mean to lower my other cousins, but, I want you to know how much I thank to Allah for giving me this great ni’mat. According to the increasing of my ages and parent’s, we regularly hold a discussion about current issues. My father always asked for my opinion,and I often hear the opinion of them. I also want to say that, my parents never forced me and my siblings to study hard, it’s enough to them for us to understand the meaning of life. Then,my parents never care about our grade or position during the tests, it’s sufficient to them for us to know the knowledge as well. My parents always give us support in any field we choose.

      In conclusion, parents are a reflection of the children, raise them with good things since childhood, always give children lot of love and moral support because only with loves and support the children will grow up very well, never force them to the things they did not like before listening to their explanations, try to find a solution for them. Good parents is a parents that understand their children.

Let's we know the World

   And people around even my family do not know what I'm trying to say. After taking care of my granny, and had a mental breakdown, I try to cure myself by doing some work that far from my family and my house. This world always teach us about life and survive in hardship. My employer is my high school teacher, she quite cute and kind person. Her husband is a pilot and she has her own business, absolutely she lives in luxury. But, I feel very depress because she minimize the quantity of workers and maximize the works for her workers. She even does not know what happen to her store, how to pay the workers, the amount of money because she is employer and I'm as employee, so, she just says what she want to say and I have to do it instead she does not teach me anything about her store. She also asked me to do her school works, she told me that she has many things to do and does not enough time to organize it.

   As conclusion, even you are a boss or director or CEO or headmaster, you should know what actually happen to your employee, you have to know their true feeling, make them sincerely work for you. Then, even you are a ' big ' person, you should not head your employee as you like and, it does mean that you are a boss, so you just sitting on the spinning chair without doing anything and without know anything about you employees. Just say good morning every day you come to work, invite them to lunch together, ask them about their healthy, give them support to work hard, ask them if they have any problem and many more. Its very easy way. All people can do it.

   The employer should know employees feeling in order to let them feel happy works with you and employees should work hard to become great like you boss. And this is world actually, there is upper classes and lower classes, there is poor and rich person live together, there is big and small things stand next to each other. So, let we know the actual world so that make we realize at place we are.

Love to Life

Salam alaik..

This my first post I made, I think I need a blog to story about my daily life. Actually, I'm quite secretive person. I don,t like to tell my life or my problems to others. I prefer to shut my mouth up. I hope this blog can give me some inspiration to color my life beautifully